Wednesday, January 10, 2007

One of the local grocery stores is having a sale on their milk this week, so last night we went out to take advantage of this special. We had drank our last drop of milk at suppertime. We bought seven gallons for $13.93. That is a real deal in this present day and age. Obviously we are big milk drinkers. We have it with every meal. One of my friends told me the other evening that the Jewish people won't drink milk when eating meat because the two are difficult enough to digest alone. It has not affected us so far as I can see. I have to admit that I am not up-to-date on Jewish customs. They really do intrigue me though.

On Sunday while I was away learning how to knit on a loom, Chad ran across a segment on 60 Minutes Online called "Quiver-Full". Those of you familiar with Psalm 127 will know what it is referring to. The show interviewed a family of ten who was part of this Quiver-full movement. It is Christians who don't practice any kind of birth control. They let God decide how many children will be added to their family. Anyway, Chad was moved by this. I had been hit with it in the face years ago when I read a book titled A Mom Just Like You. The book was written by a homeschooling mom of ten (at the time) who had been convicted early on in her marriage that she shouldn't try to control the womb. It was a hard read, but a good one. I didn't have to do anything then though because my husband didn't agree with it. It is a different story now. I have no choice but to admit that I know we (Chad and I) should be placing our faith in God in this matter. I can't tell you how many people ask us if we are done having children. Every week at least. I kept asking myself, "Why do they keep asking me that?" Well, now I know. Chad has been grinning like a cat since Sunday. I have been grimacing. I know that I have to be obedient, but it is not easy to laugh about it. When God gives us a clear direction, we have to obey or I believe there is a break in the relationship with Him, a wall so to speak. This is our direction that he has given us. I am certainly not saying that everyone has to do this. God has shown this to me and Chad personally. I have been saying since Esther was born that she was probably it, and she may be. I kept saying that I didn't want to have children after 35. Every time I would say that I would feel a little prick in the back of my mind. I knew all along that God wasn't going to let me go on thinking that I could decide in this area. By the way, I am already feeling more peaceful about it. I needed some time to digest it.

Psalm 127
Unless the LORD builds the house, They labor in vain who build it; Unless the LORD guards the city, The watchman keeps awake in vain. It is vain for you to rise up early, To retire late, To eat the bread of painful labors; For He gives to His beloved even in his sleep. Behold, children are a gift of the LORD; the fruit of the womb is a reward. Like arrows in the hand of a warrior, So are the children of one's youth. How blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them; They shall not be ashamed, When they speak with their enemies in the gate.

1 comment:

janjanmom said...

I hope my tubal ligation doesn't keep me from heaven. However, since he over-rode every other form of birth control, he could do the same with that! I have had a pang or two of regret, but I don't think I am in similar shoes to you at all. (mom-dad team)

I am proud of you for trusting, and I hope it is a comfort to you that one of my other friends, who is also named Stephanie, took the same approach and only has two children.